Today, I begin again. For the last two months, I took the time to think about my future. I took a long break but not in the right way.
Every day, I came to the blog, and nothing flowed. I just looked at a screen. I should have prayed more, but prayer even escaped me.
I seemed to wander in a place of nowhere. Not serving the Lord, not praying, and not reading His word.
Other things in my life were okay but not okay at the same time. I faced no significant problems other than a soaked carpet on the passenger side of my car, in which two mechanics cannot fathom the problem. It is more worrisome than tragic. My family is in good health.
I just recently returned to the church and felt refreshed. I prayed and read my Bible for the first time in weeks.
God blesses me, and he kept me safe from problems in this period. I neglected Him so horribly. I feel so ashamed. I confessed and am trying to return to start a new beginning.
2 Corinthians 4:16-17
Though outwardly, we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are renewed day by day.
For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs
them all. Truth: God continually makes us new.
Every moment of every day brings a fresh beginning.
Even with my failures, I can cling to Him. He understands and loves me with love so deep that I will never comprehend.
I wrote this post for Anita Ojeda’s Write 28 Days February 2020 challenge. You can learn more here. I am still trying to come up with a theme and series graphic.
In other news, be sure to check out my writing classes for children of all ages on Outschool. Outschool is a dynamic school where homeschoolers find exciting courses based on their interests. I start a new course Friday, February 21, on blogging for kids. I will begin other writing classes in March. Here is my teacher’s profile, which will list all upcoming courses.
Dear Mary,
You have been in my prayers and I am SO glad to hear that you are back and are (overall) well! We all go through these seasons of spiritual heaviness, even though we don’t always have a reason (“prone to wander, Lord I feel it”) that makes “the times of refreshing that come from the Lord” all the more sweeter when we reconnect.
The thing is, that even in these seasons, God is watching over us and we ARE growing, even if it doesn’t feel like it inside.
The enemy wants to discourage us but no one and nothing can ever snatch us out of the Lord’s hand.
Much love and encouragement to you!
His mercies never fail Mary! It’s good to have you here again, I have been praying that God met your needs. Praise Him that He did! 😀
Bless you,
Jennifer
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Mary, it was so good to see your post and even though there is sadness mixed with it, you are in motion. Like the other ladies have expressed, we missed you and I know many of us have prayed for you. I’m reminded of Abraham about whom Paul said, “who, contrary to hope, in hope believed.” I’ve read that biblical hope is not the wishing and hoping, cross your fingers kind of belief. It’s a sure thing. So, in spite of our feelings, we too can believe in the only real hope, Jesus Christ and Him crucified.
Also, 2 Cor. 3.4-5 comes to mind:
4 Such confidence we have through Christ toward God. 5 Not that we are adequate in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God.
Praying for you, Mary.
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Good to hear from you, Mary. We’ve misssed you in the blog space but certainly understand sometimes life happens and sometimes words refuse to show up. Praying you find your writing stride again and the Lord partners with you.
Welcome back. You have been in my thoughts and prayers. I missed you in this spot. maree
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With any small step we make in God’s direction, he meets us and runs toward us like the dad in the parable. I’ve been so concerned about your silence, so it’s good to hear your “voice” here again. Blessings to you as you rest in his grace and wait for the next clear direction.
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I’m so grateful you wrote this. I am not alone. What a relief. Thank you for telling it like it is.
Disabled but often disheartened x
Thank you Mary for sharing your heart and this scripture with us. I am so thankful that even in our failures we can cling to Him. I hope you have a lovely day!
In so many ways I am in this same place, although I’m still stuck. Cannot seem to move forward spiritually. I am hoping by writing again, about other things happening in my life, I will find that place of sweet communion once again. I look forward to ready your series and reconnecting.
we all have periods in our lives like that…sadly. but often they are followed by growth spurts. the encouragement is that GOD is superintending our growth even when it doesn’t looking like growth…even when we aren’t doing anything…God is still working.
so be encouraged as i am. despite our weakness, He is working to bring us to the point where we will be complete…but the work won’t be done until we get to heaven.
Blessings mary:)