Isaiah 43:2
“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you.”
I sat in the waiting trying to believe. Holding my breath.
Will my mother be okay. Will she stay with me past this major surgery.
I am lucky; my family sits with me.
Two brothers and a sister with their spouses; we all watch the clock.
I wonder what each of us are thinking.
We speak of memories. We pace. But we all believe.
We know God has her. He will see her through this surgery.
Going through this time makes me reflective.
What was it about my mother that influenced me the most? I know the answer: her guts and her “believe.” She believed in the toughest of times and the darkest of hours.
She believed in me. She believed in my talents.
I don’t want to write in past tense here as I watch the clock. She will come through: I believe.
I remember the day she took me to college for the first time. My father and she expressed such pride and belief in me. They knew I would succeed in school.
She loaded the car with my suitcases filled with more than clothes or sheets for my dorm bed. They were filled with her belief. We journeyed far that day to Virginia Intermont College; through beautiful mountain towns and cities.
Excitement could not even describe how I felt, but it was an excitement tinged with regret of recent mistakes and wrong choices. My mother believed in me though. She knew I would come through even this trial.
You see, I went to college as a separated married woman at 18. It is a long story; I can’t begin to cover in five minutes, but let me say; my family spent the week prior in turmoil and tears. But my mother loaded the trunk of her car that day in faith. Faith and belief in me.
I watch the time ticking away; waiting for news. Now it is my time to believe. God has her today.
She will come out the other end of this whole; either here on earth or in the heavenly realm with Christ.
I wrote this post for the 31 Days of Five Minute Free Writes and the Write 31 Days 2018 challenge.
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This is a beautiful post and hopefilled!